Wow, our lives have changed sooo much even just since January. Let me start from a little before then. Last Christmas was probably my most difficult. Christmas has always been a magical, fun time for me. I love getting around family, giving and receiving cool presents. I love the food and the laughter and the conversations. Last year, I was the sickest I have been...maybe ever, but at least in a long time. We had been talking about the possibility of having children in the next year or two, possibly we might start "trying" in April of that next year. Well, with my laryngitis voice, I told my husband, next year for Christmas, I wanted a baby. Lol. So, whether it seemed like the best time financially or not, I knew our family was missing a little somebody. I wasn't given all this heart and passion for children just to shower it on other people's children, although that had been working out just fine. I knew I was designed to take care of my own little kiddos. So in March I got pregnant!
Well, as things turned out, my in home daycare business kind of unraveled and I became a "stay at home homemaker" more by default than choice at the beginning of June. So for the last month, I have been jobless. The house is (usually) cleaner than it's ever been and I am super well rested, which is nice for being pregnant. However, I have discovered that more time does not always equal more productive time. I have to be a whole lot more disciplined with all this extra time at my disposal if I want to get anything worthwhile accomplished. And that is not something that comes readily to me. It has been somewhat of a struggle.
I do plan to start a job at some point this month, but it has been interesting how long the process has become. I have been so used to applying for a job and pretty instantly being hired and starting right away. It has been different for me to spend this much time doing...essentially nothing. I haven't had this much time off since the summer of probably my junior year in high school (2001). I have either worked or been in school ever since then.
The great part about this time of uncertainty in our lives is
#1. I have an amazing husband who protects me from most any financial stressor and is a constant source of encouragement.
#2. I have absolute FAITH that God knows exactly what He is doing in our lives right now and that there is a definite purpose in my time off right now.
#3. God never ceases to provide all of our needs and does abundantly more than we could ever ask or imagine.
Because of each of those things, I feel relaxed and not stressed and I know God is responsible. Because that is NOT the Amanda Zopp of a few years ago.
Things may appear uncertain, but my God is the same yesterday today and forever. Plus, He has blessed us with an amazing gift of life! What a fun and uncertain adventure we are on already ;-) I know the best is yet to come...
Well, as things turned out, my in home daycare business kind of unraveled and I became a "stay at home homemaker" more by default than choice at the beginning of June. So for the last month, I have been jobless. The house is (usually) cleaner than it's ever been and I am super well rested, which is nice for being pregnant. However, I have discovered that more time does not always equal more productive time. I have to be a whole lot more disciplined with all this extra time at my disposal if I want to get anything worthwhile accomplished. And that is not something that comes readily to me. It has been somewhat of a struggle.
I do plan to start a job at some point this month, but it has been interesting how long the process has become. I have been so used to applying for a job and pretty instantly being hired and starting right away. It has been different for me to spend this much time doing...essentially nothing. I haven't had this much time off since the summer of probably my junior year in high school (2001). I have either worked or been in school ever since then.
The great part about this time of uncertainty in our lives is
#1. I have an amazing husband who protects me from most any financial stressor and is a constant source of encouragement.
#2. I have absolute FAITH that God knows exactly what He is doing in our lives right now and that there is a definite purpose in my time off right now.
#3. God never ceases to provide all of our needs and does abundantly more than we could ever ask or imagine.
Because of each of those things, I feel relaxed and not stressed and I know God is responsible. Because that is NOT the Amanda Zopp of a few years ago.
Things may appear uncertain, but my God is the same yesterday today and forever. Plus, He has blessed us with an amazing gift of life! What a fun and uncertain adventure we are on already ;-) I know the best is yet to come...
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